Vipassana Meditation Experience of Mr. Hano
It is with full realization and humility, that I state it is not through my own abilities that I have come so far to reach this stage. But It was the Power of the Master that lifted me and my Mind, high enough, for me to be able to see the TRUTH for and about myself and about the world of illusion and suffering.
This year I have gone from darkness to light, from ego to no ego, from not knowing to the knowing. Learning how to reach the Ultimate Truth about myself. Learning how to be equanimous and not give things a value.
Like the popular science fiction movie, “Ready Player ONE” I realize that we are all stuck in a type virtual reality game, a world of illusion and distraction, that holds us here by gravity created by our emotions as explain by Master Achravadee Wongsakon. The harder we try to escape, the tighter the world of illusion grabs hold on us. The more we react to the stimulation of this world of Illusion, the more we let our feelings turn into emotions, the stronger the gravity that holds our Minds in the endless game of reincarnation.
It is not until we realize that rules of the game, that we even have a chance to find the exit. The first step is to purify the mind of all the weight created by building emotions in this and the past lives. This can only be done with Techo Meditation, burning away the Kilesa that attached to the gravity of the world of illusion.
But this will not be easy, because the Kilesa that thrive on us being in the game, will continue to tempt us from every angle, to have desire, cravings, aversion, anger, hate, fear, all these emotions then holding us more tightly in the game.
The Kilesa use tricks like doubt, ego, temptation, lust, anger, hunger…. whatever they can do to make you break your precepts and step off the bright path. Once the Kilesa are able to break your resolve and virtues and cause you step off the noble path, that’s when they have you.
So how do we escape? The truth is most of us will never be able to escape, because we do not even know the rules of the game. We are taught by our parents, what they believe the rules are. Mara needs us to keep the dark world of illusions alive, by whatever emotions she can cause us to create.
If Mara can get us to collectively react to something that creates a collective reaction, then even better for her, because it strengthens a larger gravity net that catches and binds more people to the illusion. The World Wide Web is perfect tool for the Mara to use. Billions are connected to platforms like Facebook and Instagram. If Billions of people react to a story or photo, then the collective reaction sends a huge wave of power to strengthen the gravity of the world of illusion and lock us in even deeper. Each time you click like, there is an electrical charge that happens either on your end, or the end that people receive the Like acknowledgement. Each time that electrical charge feeds the Matrix.
Buddha through such strength and determination, figured out the rules broke himself out of the game. He shows us the rules for us to follow, but even with the road map in our hands, the Kilesa and Mara and world of illusion, play with us like puppets. Few of us have the resolve to get out. Few of us have the ability to see things how they really are. Misery loves company and our friends would rather keep us with them, as they also suffer in the illusion.
I know how to get out of the game.
My experiences during my Techo Mediations courses, have led me to understand, what Master means about being Mindful. Mindfulness means closing the doors of my senses, so I do not get lured into the world of illusions and break my precepts or empower the illusion by allowing my feelings to turn into emotions and give power to the Mara world.
By refusing to allow the Mara to attract me with sights, smells, sounds, tastes and touch. I can prevent myself from being drawn into the world of illusion and building new or bigger Kilesa. With my Mind focused and aware of anything that may attract my senses, I just need to acknowledge and give no value to whatever arises. If I falter during the day and have feelings that’s develop into emotions and Kilesa, then I have my Techo practice to burn those impurities.
For this understanding I am Eternally GRATEFUL and indebted to the Master Acharavadee Wongsakon.
I provide this background not out of ego since my ego as fade much this past year through Techo Meditation practice. But to demonstrate to the reader that I am a strong-minded business person. As you read about my experiences, these things may sound unbelievable. It may sound like I am crazy person off the street that joined a meditation retreat, because perhaps I was weak-minded or that I may have gotten brain washed in the process.
This is Far from the Truth. I am as strong-minded as they come. All that I set out in these pages, is my true experience. I am exposing my experiences to the world in hopes that I may help share the rules of the game, others may also find the Master and Awaken.
I am a foreign Techo Vipassana Student.
I was born in Germany and grew up in Canada and Hawaii. I am 55 this year “Farang”. I did not no much about Buddha or his teaching when I first joined Techo Vipassana.
I have been successful in the real estate development business. I own luxury resorts and private Islands and other businesses. I became successful quickly and I was retired by the age of 45.
This was the picture a decade ago when I was on top of my game. But the reality this past decade not as glamourous as it once was. My businesses are located in a corrupt Asian country. My assets have been constantly attacked by Mafia, corrupt government officials in concert with crocked company director who all colluded and were determined to steal my assets. Eventually this caused me to live my life in Thailand, maintaining my businesses from a distance, to avoid getting kidnapped, extorted or worse. I have had close foreign friends who also resort developers and business owners, who were not as lucky as me and either lost their businesses and assets or worse lost their freedom and or their lives.
I have spent most of the last decade fighting for and protecting my assets, from all those who wanted to steal them from me through nefarious means.
I recall sitting front of the Master Acharavadee in my third Meditation review when she asked me if I had experienced any emotions in my meditation. I thought for a moment and said
“yes” I told her
I had been angry for years that I have spent the last decade dealing with problems resulting from corruption, and resented that my life was not that way I had planned.
It was at that moment that that I had a realization. If all these “bad” things had not happened to me, I never would have been sitting in front of the Master at this moment.
I considered that odds of me having been born in Germany, growing up in Canada then Hawaii and ending up in the land of Buddha. The odds were staggering and I knew a whole lot of things had to have happened in my life to find my way to Saraburi Thailand and to somehow have the desire to become a student of Techo Vipassana.
Remembering my wish I made in a past life “that I would give up anything to be liberated” made me realize that I now would give up any and all of assets, I had been fighting so hard to keep, for the chance to be liberate and exit the world of illusion. Suddenly I felt myself letting go emotionally to all those things I had been holding onto so tightly.
I thought to myself, all those corrupt individuals I resented, had done me the Biggest favor of my life and I owed them a debt of gratitude. I never would have ended up willing to join a Mediation retreat, if I had access to all my assets and able to live the life I had planned.
When I first arrived at Techo Vipassana Saraburi, I believed I was following and supporting my partner on her spiritual journey. I thought I had joined Techo Vipassana for her, and to support our relationship. Not for myself.
I was so wrong. As it has turns out, I now realize, that this Journey with Techo and the Master, is actually my own. It was my Destiny, to find Techo Vipassana, my partner was only there to help me find the way.
I have seen a long, long ago in a different life, that I made a wish to be liberated from this world of illusion and reincarnation. That wish is what has brought halfway around the world to Techo Vipassana, in the “Land of Buddha” and gave me that chance to become a student of Master Acharavadee Wongsakon.
Whatever happened to bring me to this moment, I am now so Grateful for it.
It was during the Merit ceremony of the third course, that recall I made my wish not for myself, but for the Master. And in turn the Master made a wish for me….
“I wish that I would have all the success in my life and business and so you can find your way to Liberation.”
And that wish from the Master by nothing short of a Miracle, all the problems of the last decade began untangled rapidly. All those who had been attacking me suddenly lost power, were facing criminal charges and I for the first time found myself returning to a country, I had not been in for in years. This was at the personal invitation of high-level Police general, who on his own initiative took on my problems, did not want any money to clear my problems (which is unheard of in corrupt places), but wanted to help genuinely help me, “because of his Karma”. He had been reading books about Karma and felt something about me and my story.
One of my Techo friends not knowing I had travelled back to this country, told me they saw in a vision recently, that I had returned to deal with my business problems and she could see as the car carrying me and my partner from the airport, the dark angels had to cover their eyes, and look away from all the bright light coming from the angels surrounding and protecting us.
Returning to face my problems, was a significant moment in my life where by facing my fears and not being afraid to return to a dangerous situation, the Mara world of illusion lost more of a big grip on me.
I realize that fear is a strong element and emotion, that keeps us locked in. I also know that this sudden unraveling of complex problems, has to do with the wish of the Master for me and the power the Triple Gems. These things do not just happen like this.
My First day
My first course of Techo Vipassana was one of the most difficult things I have ever done. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
I had no idea what I was getting into. I did not really pay much attention to the details. My partner had arranged everything and I figured I just had to show up and make it through the week.
Physically I was not ready. Like most middle-aged foreigners, I really have not spent much time sitting cross legged on the floor since kinder garden. After a couple of days, the pain in my legs, knees, hips, back was excruciating. But in retrospect I must say that the body does adapt over just a few days, weeks and months. Where one year ago I could hardly sit 15 minutes meditating, before having to move my legs to relieve the pain. Where now I can sit for 2 hours without much discomfort or moving.
Where last year, my concentration of my Mind was weak, now I can flex my Mind like a muscle, and bring it to focus almost immediately.
My mind and head feel different. I hear a slight ringing noise in my ears now, but not a distracting ring, it is like the high pitch hum of an Energy current. Since my last course and reaching the first stage, when I close my eyes, I can see energy grids and lines.
My mental concentration is strong. This past year I have attempted to do some writing but did not have the flow or concentration to complete my writing. The past few days since the retreat, I have been writing with ease and speed and a new clarity. Also work I have been procrastinating on for months, seems to be getting done with ease.
Everything starts to change when one begins to awaken. If this is only the first step, I look forward to going to the next level. As I write down my experiences, my head is beginning to ache and I realize that as I reveal the truth in these, the Kilesa are going to war to try to block or stop me. That is the battle we all face constantly. The Kilesa want us to fail and stay in the game. Of this we must remain Mindful every moment if we want to find our way out.
Desire for the Super Natural
Once I started to see visions and other dimensions in my first Techo Meditation practice, I did not understand what I was seeing or more importantly, what I was looking for. I would see aerial views of deserts, but not a beautiful desert. It was covered with shrubs and grass patches. Sometime I could see people walking through it. Other times I would find myself sitting on some sand, I could see things clearly in HD. I could see the grains of sand. Sometimes I found myself moving through the forest and even over mountains. But what was the Destination? What was I supposed to be looking for?
In my first Mediation review, the Master asked me what I saw. I told her exactly what I saw but remarked to the Master that all these scenes struck me as plain ordinary looking.
The Master replied, “yes that is correct” you should only know it and not give what you see any value….”
I then asked her about the Destination. “What is the Destination Master?”
“There is no Destination.” She replied. “As images arise, just know them, do not give them a value. Focus on the focus point. That is you only duty”
I was looking for the extraordinary. The super natural.
So unfortunately, I did not follow the Master instructions and my Kilesa were more than happy to high jack my mediation practice and lead me down a beautiful scenic path. I began to see forests, oceans, mountains, stars and all the things in nature I enjoyed. My concentration did not stay on focus point. I let my concentration follow the images and enjoyed my meditations. I thought I had a special gift. For the next couple courses, I forgot all about Kilesa, never really saw them again and figured Kilesa were a thing of the past.
Finally, the Master in my third course during Meditation review, asked me what I saw. I told her I was sitting in the ocean and watching a school of fish.
With a firm voice the Master said “no …no that is not right” Sit and meditate in front of me. As I meditated in front of the Master, my visions changed from beautiful scenes back to what I saw in my first course, ugly caves containing Kilesa. I now once again saw how things really are.
For all these past months, I had forgotten the purpose of Techo Vipassana Mediation practice, I was not meant to spend my time looking around in my visions, I was supposed to be fighting a war against the Kilesa to purify my mind. This was a rude awakening and a hard lesson I had to learn. Did I just waste a couple courses enjoying the scenery?